Its very pain to totally erase the guy you love for 7yrs?

he had changed heart and initial a breakoff. he has call off the wedding last mth, house. everthing. inuding our shops all have to split. im very very heartbroken, it was bleeding hard. wats more he add in "i swear i now wont love you forever wont love you" im happy that i am wout you in my life. i have freedom cos this 6+ yrs i feel suffering with you. i feel cage. we was having cool period mth, i feel so love him but he fall for another gal. 2 week b4 the end date of the cool period date he break this news to me. he have 2 uncurable sickness. i accepted him. i said i will love you till death do us part but why he did this hurt me so deep. i been crying for days and cant eat and slp. i feel like dying. wat i do reminds me of him. our happy times together in this 7yrs.